By My life was going on,
Moving on,
Through flowers and thunderstorms,
But I was okay,
I was fine,
I was in balance,
I thought I had a life,
Time went on.
And one day,
I was introduced to a character,
A very new person,
“He”
Was his name,
He had messaged me,
Saying,
“You are my Sun. I have longed for you through all this years.”
A flashy message,
I thought,
My hands and mind clashed,
Whether to reply or to deny,
But what’s done is mostly by heart,
Heart won,
And my hands quickly wrote,
“I have made you wait, haven’t I?”
And my illusionary love commenced,
I love you,
Promises,
Hugs,
Kissing emojis’,
All that drama,
I was,
He was,
Completely in love,
And so I thought,
I was in love,
I had found him,
My bone of bone,
My long waited person.
After one month,
Of till midnight messages,
Of that virtual love,
We vowed to meet,
But a covenant was made,
There would be no touching,
No kissing,
None of that,
Hug was okay,
Love was okay,
Love was mutual,
Love was all,
All was love.
Oyo Hotel,
I had booked,
And waited,
And waited,
For the day,
The day came,
I showered,
Made myself pretty,
Wore a skirt and
A red sweater,
And rode to the location,
I waited,
I was there early,
And he came.
I smiled,
He smiled,
I flight my hands to hug him,
He wraps his hand around me.
Room 105,
We were there,
I was feeling nervous,
He started the talk,
I sat in the bed,
He came near me,
I found him warm.
After those talks,
Our talk shifted,
He started talking dirty,
My breath grew,
I told him our promise,
He stopped,
But only for a minute,
He continued the same talks again,
And me,
Lost in my own thoughts,
I began questioning myself,
“Was I wrong?
Does this person love me?”
I was sweating hard,
I was panicking,
And suddenly,
I could feel something,
He had laid his hands on my thighs,
I immediately cast away his hands,
But the hands returned again and again,
And with his other hand,
He began touching my neck,
I was trying hard,
Casting away his touches,
He was rebellious and
Had taken his hands on my chest,
I was enraged,
And slapped him hard,
He stopped,
But his senses didn’t come,
He slapped me too,
And he fiercely threw my whole body,
On the master bed room,
And came on top of me,
He held my hands tight,
He had practically become so wild,
I struggled,
But managed to knock him down with my legs,
And I ran away from there,
As fast as I could,
Breathing hard,
Panting,
Regretting,
For being a fool,
Crying,
For trusting.
Now,
Years have passed,
Since the incident occurred,
It has not been easy,
I am scared,
I fear people,
I couldn’t trust people,
I couldn’t go in between crowds,
But I am beginning to understand life,
That,
It’s unfair,
I can’t get a momentum,
I lose myself,
I have nightmares,
Now,
Trust,
I can’t,
Love,
I can’t,
Forgive,
I am distant,
But hope,
I have,
Hope,
I do.
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