By Written by Iksha Limbu
My Dear First Love,
First love, I’m never going to forget.You played such a big role in making me who I am today. I know that we could never be together but that doesn’t mean we are not in love. The moment we spent and shared is equal to forever. You were the one I ever loved.
This is a letter to you, to let you know how much I reassure you and how much you meant in my life.
I had written you this letter in my head many times in the past but was unable to put it into words. I couldn’t find the perfect words to say to my unheard voice that was left unsaid between you and me.
Though I do not see you and meet you now, I know about you and your activities through your Facebook and Instagram. I keep on stalking your profile just to check-in your social world, to see that you are happy with your life.
My last letter to you was furious, dark and full of regrets. But time heals everything. So, I am rewriting it again.
Now, I have to admit that you were the one that made me live life again. When I felt that I was purposeless and had nothing special in me, you were the one to rekindle hope and joy in my life. You opened your heart to me. You praised my strength and my flaws. You made me who I am today. I am here because of you.
You were the only person who listened to my endless talks, gossip and always supported me. When nobody cared, you were still there. You challenged my arguments but respected my opinions. You never failed to brighten my day with your charm. And your presence was the reason for my smile.
You believed in me even when I didn’t believe in myself and for everything you did for me, I thank you.
You made me realize that I was worth much more than my past dark days. You taught me that my mistakes never defined me. Thank you for believing in me. With you, I learned to have faith, trust, and confidence in myself.
Before I met you in my life, I never imagined it was even possible to love someone so passionately. You proved that true love exists in this cruel world.
When I look back to our cheerful old days, I now laugh thinking how jealous I used to get. The reality was, I always feared to lose you. Now remembering in our past, our valentines’ week and our regular awkward datings, I feel alive. Those were sweet and bitter moments of ours together.
Sometimes, I still cry listening to the song that you dedicated to me. But I am scared to listen to the same song now, as it reminds me of you, unlike the silence I had with you.
I always felt the pulse of how much I cared and loved you. You’re my first love. I genuinely loved you.
I always find ways to think about you. I regret not being with you. You left me forever leaving me with learning to never give up on someone that matters so much in life.
I lived years with my broken heart and slept with scary nights, crying and thinking about you. I wish you had never left me.
People say that “Love knows no age” and you made me be a believer in that statement. You proved them true. We were young and innocent when we were in love but the love was real.
Despite hearing that we were too young to be in love, we loved breaking the old stigma. We made our love worthy. We lived for each other. We shared our innocent hearts.
We were for each other, apart, but close from the heart.
I want to thank you for being my life first love, my first heartbreak, my first hero and my first everything.
Regardless of how things ended between us, there is always something special in my heart for you. Thank you.
The letter I never wrote to you
From,
The Girl who was once yours
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