More than what meets the eye? | Poem by Raisha Shrestha

Poem by Raisha Shrestha

I was 13,

Exploring yet enjoying

All the crazy emotions

Going within me

So, one fine day

I wanted to stay home,

Told every possible excuse

But it all came out negative

Nor there were two math classes

Nor two science classes

And even I had done all my homework

So, why was that day special?

That day was checkup day

Of height and weight.

I wish I could get

The “Mister India” bracelet

That was the first time

I felt embarrassed of myself

And who I was

Which probably wouldn’t be the last

After these days,

Things started,

Kept on going

Fighting with myself

Trying, falling down

Then standing up again

Didn’t feel good

Insecurities won the battle

With confidence

And broke me down

Looking at my body

In the mirror

Up and down

Up and down for hours

Searching for just one good thing.

I found nothing,

But felt like

A fat, disgusting waste of space

I tried managing weight

And I sucked at it

And I still do

But today,

I find that 13 year old me

Silly and irrelevant

Because I have realized

That I am destined

To be something more

To be that girl who loves herself

To be that girl who lives her life

To be that girl who is proud

Of who she is.

To be that girl who knows

Beauty doesn’t lie in only skinny bodies

But also lies in curves

That girl who knows what she wants

And fights for until it’s hers

That girl who has insecurities

But at the end of the day

Say “whatever”

Because she knows who runs the world.

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